A Japanese Student's Kundalini Experience
I am a Japanese student studying at a university in America. I came to this country in 1991. I had some personal problems in 1995. I was wasting away under enormous stress, and decided to take a leave of absence for a while. I have never been so stressed out as I was at that time. I went back to Japan in July that year and stayed there until January, 1997.It was during that time when I began to have mystical experiences. But prior to that, when I was in bed, resting, a number of times I experienced a strange sensation somewhere in the back of my head behind my ears. It felt like that part of my brain was shaking. I recall hearing loud rushing noises. I sometimes still experience this shaking.
The first time it happened I was in a semi-conscious state. Round about this time I began to see smoky lights on the ceiling of my room. I just thought my eyesight had got a little worse from reading, and did not pay much attention to the lights. However, in late November or early December, 1996, I had very vivid but short photographic visions of Boddhisattva and Jesus Christ one after the other. (I used to be a Baptist Christian, but I was not happy with its dogma, and have drifted away from Christians. Christianity caused me nothing but pain.)
I was awestruck, but at the same time I did not exclude the possibility that it was just an illusion. But I continued to have visions sporadically. I soon noted that some of the visions indicated future events in my environment. To my surprise many of them have come to pass. For instance in August 1997, I had a very vivid vision of a friend's wedding ceremony. I was not aware that he was seeing somebody.
A couple of months later a mutual friend told me that he was planning to get married. (In connection with the visions, I must mention something else. I was asked by a meditator to help clear out her basement. I noticed a book about Edgar Cayce. I don't know why. I asked her to lend me that book. She also told me read another book. I believe it was entitled "Joy's way" by Dr.Brugh Joy. I read them in a few days. To my surprise the book went into details about Cayce's and Dr.Joy's visions. I discovered that the descriptions of their visions are very similar to mine.)
Shortly after I came back to this country, Hindus, Buddhists and meditators appeared from out of nowhere and got me involved in meditation. Knowing life here was stressfull, I thought meditation might help fight off stress. I did not take it seriously at first. I don't know why, but I began to practice it every day during the summer. It felt so peaceful and I took a liking to it.
Three or four days later I began to see a very bright white light just like a headlight. In November, that year, I began to experience a painful burning sensation on the sides of my head above the ears. I realized that every time I did meditation, the pain got intensified.
In late November, when I was in bed, I heard a voice, saying something like "I am going to make some changes in your body. This is going to hurt a little. Bear with me." It said something specific in my body, but I missed it. I describe what I heard as a voice, but it was not like someone talking sitting next to me. It was more like thoughts directly coming into your head. At least it felt like that. Almost instantly. I felt some powerful electric current rushing through my body. I remember opening my eyes during this experience. Everything went white during the electric shock. This only lasted for two or three seconds. A couple of minutes later, whatever it was spoke to me again, and gave me a strange prediction which actually came to pass within five days.
I was scared, and thought I might have gone insane. I mentioned my experiences to Hindus and Buddhists. It was then when I first heard the word "Kundalini" They showed me books on meditation. I was shocked to find out that many of my experiences were accurately described. After this event I have heard different voices a couple of times. The third time I heard a voice, it was like a very soothing woman's voice. I noticed it was weeping. I sensed it knew that I was suffering.
This is not the end of my story. A couple of weeks after the electric shock in late November 1997, I began to hear very high-pitched buzzing noises 24 hours a day. I sometimes hear bells, chimes, and clappings as well. The problem is that the buzzing noises don't go away. When I'm reading, working, or talking to people, those noises hardly bother me. They just fade in the background. When I'm relaxing, I find it annoying.
Besides noises and lights, I often feel my body vibrating as if I'm floating. Whenever I do meditation, I always feel a slow coiling motion, and bubbles coming up my body, and smell something burning. I also feel electrically charged in my body, especially on my arms and in the back of my head in addition to moving pressures along the spine.
I also constantly see flashes of bluish white light. In October and December 1999 I felt an upsurge of energy coming up to my chest. It felt like my whole body was exploding. At that moment the noises got extremely loud. I really thought I was dying. I realized I was literally shaking. The bed was making squeaky noises though I was just lying still.
Later that month, I had the most unusual experience. When I was in bed, I felt a couple of fingers beat the back of my neck in a jocular manner several times. I was frightened. It felt so real. I don't know what it was, or whether it was an illusion. In fact I've had similiar experiences other than that. In September 1997 when I was dozing off in bed, I heard a very strong breathing noise right over my face. Almost simultaneously I felt some strong warm air with saliva hit my face. When it hit my face, it made a splash of blue lights. The sensation of having saliva on my face faded a moment later. I jumped out of bed and looked at my face, but there was nothing on my face.
The lady I've contacted who has been suffering Kundalini effects for more than 20 years mentioned that these visitors? might be my "guides"??, and said to try talking to them. (She claims that she's briefly experienced cosmic consciousness.) I don't know if this is the right thing to do, but I've experienced a lot of strange coincidences of different kinds as if someone was trying to either teach me something or make practical jokes on me or perhaps both. Moreover, the most serious symptom is chronic fatigue, and headaches I sometimes get.
Looking back. I believe I was partially responsible for my experiences. When I was a christian, I developed a very strong yearning for the divine. I didn't get anything positive from Christianity other than that. The Bible says: Revelation 3:20 "Here I am I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me."
During my prayer, I often prayed, "No, it is me who is knocking on YOUR door. If YOU hear my voice, please open the door and reveal yourself to me. You say you are the Father, but you never reveal yourself to anyone. Even Billy Graham and Pope have never seen you. There are no such human fathers in the world. What are you, then? If they were, they wouldn't be good fathers by anyone's standard. ---" I suppose I take most of the blame for my experiences.
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